A LOSS .... NOT ONE THAT I WANTED OR WAS READY FOR!

On September 20th I was in the middle of teaching my classroom when my cell started ringing. I usually don't answer it while I am at school but when they called back immediately I had a feeling something wasn't right. I picked up the phone and my brother-in-law said, "Mom is gone". I asked where she had gone and his response was, "She is dead". She was 57 years old, my husband had spoken to her two days before and she was fine! She took a nap and never woke up again. We will not know the cause of her death for at least another 2 weeks.

So I haven't been blogging because we have been very busy since then and because I am finally feeling a little more like myself. I have not exercised because my sleep has been sporadic. There are nights were I sleep 3 hours and some when I wake up on the hour. I feel drained emotionally and physically. My appetite has been almost non existent which is not like me because I am an emotional eater at heart. I have lost weight and if it was under any other circumstance I would be ecstatic.

It's hard to see my husband and my little girl so sad and try to maintain my composure and be the strong one. We all miss her very much!

I am going to begin exercising again this week. I actually miss it and think that it can get me through this time.

I  apologize if my post this time was sort of a downer ..... I am looking forward to going back to my routine and the way things were before that phone call.

Thanks for "listening".